response

hi there, it’s been quite a while since the last time i updated this blog.

there’re times that i wanted to share something in this blog, but i can’t seem to find willingness, reasons and words to write them.

fortunatelly, i just found one “good” reason to start writing. –> as a response to a question from my brother

talking about response,  it crossed my mind about proactive and reactive, action and reaction, seeking and waiting.

I see myself as a more reactive kind of person, the one that awaits for a problem, an order, or something to happens before taking any actions.

i realize it’s not a good character, some close friends of mine once told me that i should try to be more proactive, not just waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting for something to happens before taking action.

not that i haven’t tried, but it’s hard (relatively) being a proactive person, being a person who actively seeking for an answer rather than waiting for the answer to be presented.

for example: it is easier to wait for an email/sms to be replied than to keep reminding to be replied, or it is easier to wait for some tasks to be completed than to keep pushing the tasks to be completed.

in normal condition, i find it hard to push/ rush people to get what we want (response, answer, document, report, anything).

it feels like “memaksakan kehendak” if you know what i mean.

well, i believe that it may be hard, but it’s still possible for me to become a more proactive person.

i need to try harder, and change some of my paradigm, and also learn to seek for a response/answer in a better, and nicer way so that the one receiving it will kindly and willingly giving response/answer.

well, i got a load of things to be learn in this life, i must prepare my heart, my mind, and my body to learn AND  practise what i’ve learn.

and while doing it, i must remember to enjoy the journey, the journey of life (thanks to my brother, for keep reminding me this when i shared my feelings).

well, now for my response (or answer) to my brother’s question.

in my previous post, i shared my goal setting for this year, i think it’s time to evaluate them:

• Achieve an IBM Tivoli certification (Tivoli Identity Manager 5.0)

in 6th of march i’ve taken my first attempt to achieve the certification, but i failed.

i needed 3 more correct answer to pass the test and achieve my first ever certification.

i feel sad and quite disappointed, but it’s okay, i can retake the test when i’m ready.

• Job promotion

well, i’ve officially achieve the promotion early this year, thanks to GOD.

but i mustn’t be too excited, because a promotion means a greater responsibility.

i must learn to take the responsibility and give my best – as to the Lord and not to men-

• Salary upgrade by 1.5 times

this too was achieved early this year, along with the promotion

although it’s not as big as i expected, i’m gratefull enough because it can helps my savings for marriage (isn’t it right, dear ;P)

• My father accepted Jesus as his only Savior

i’m still praying for this to finally happens,  never lose hope, right

• Total savings of xxx millions

it’s still far from reach but i keep on saving and saving and saving while spending and spending and spending more, hahahaha.

i believe, with GOD anything could happens.

i just have to keep  relying on HIM while obeying all HIS COMMAND.

Janganlah takut, sebab Aku menyertai engkau,

janganlah bimbang sebab Aku ini Allahmu;

Aku akan meneguhkan, bahkan akan menolong engkau;

Aku akan memegang engkau dengan tangan kanan-Ku

yang membawa kemenangan [Yes 41:10]

~ by h4rdw0rk on March 15, 2009.